RMXS: GASOLINE : 2 C₈H₁₈ + 25 O₂ → 16 CO₂ + 18 H₂O

|::  Deflagration RMX  ::| 6m34s

Decycled remix uses only the existing material from the original tracks.

|::  Winterized RMX  ::| 8m01s

Using only the soft synths in cakewalk and drum machine.  The accompaniment is all new material with new chord structures and utilizing E-minor as the relative minor.

|::  Choke RMX   ::| 6m54s

With the exception of the drums and vocals all additional material is performed by sven.

These are available for download at: http://elsinore.bandcamp.com/album/svens-gasoline-trio -proceeds benefit Imerman Angels!

Working with raw tracks is a lot like taking an anatomy class, but at the end you have to choose the anatomical parts and make them into a new person. I learned so much about what went into creating Elsinore’s YES YES YES album.  “Gasoline” itself was ~139 tracks and none of the tracks seemed unnecessary it is a surprisingly layered recording.

I never thought that I would make it through all of the material and remix the song in such a way that would honor the original, I hope I succeeded.  I am excited to see where this goes.

Vernal  – Spring –Renewal/Regret -F major

“Infatuation”

In whispered quiet the gentle green growth waits

Breaks forth to life like souls to Heaven’s gate

Renew life from winter’s cold, dark embrace

Bring us to hope and light without a trace

Sparkling dew drips down the driving grass stems

We will take this moment to make amends

Light breathes with great urgency to arrive

We move towards the fresh air of our new life

New life begins what nature has ended

Renewal of old life represented

Cast away the skulking ghosts of the past

Failing to forget the present cannot last

Taking this, the gift of hope we now own

Forgotten are the frigid winds that blow

When the earth is browned and dormant sleep

The breath of love we shall forever keep

Estival – Summer-Comfort/Consequence – D major

“Complications”

The complicated arid air you bring

Brings forth the birds, who open up and sing

The lasting days of light thought of it best

Though the young birds fly away from our nest

Transfixed upon the lasting days

The bright blue sky and forgotten grays

The heat of the midday sun’s baking beams

Daylight reminds us of gifts we receive

Believe that all is well with all things here

That with the blinding heat and sultry cheer

Comes browning grasses and the creeping roots

Weeds break loose from the ground with quick sharp shoots

We look towards the moments we’ll receive

When at last we can count on the relief

Of the glow of warm summer night’s sleep

The warmth of love we shall forever keep

Autumnal – Autumn- Splendor/Suffering – E minor

“Faithfulness”

The returns of labor bring forth reward

Soil gives bounty of summer’s board

The birds we hear gathering close in fall

Remind us that time draws upon us all

Flourish the colors in the air we breathe

Completing the words we cannot conceive

And although the cool air brings with it storms

The trees bring forth red, yellow, and orange

Autumn sadness grips us with firm regret

For rewards of time and the gifts unspent

Moving forward and leaving the rest behind

We persist with open hearts and minds

Infuse passion in the hope we carry

Even our life finds it necessary

And long at last the trees sigh once to sleep

The hope of love we shall forever keep

Hibernal – Winter- Completion/Contemplation – D minor

“Eternity”

Although the distant landscape has grown bare

It is in shelters of warmth we now share

Sparkling dew replaced by sparkling snow

It is in sharing space our love now grows

As we shut our eyes to the distant wind

Carry us away and let our souls blend

Although darkness creeps into our lives

We shall see the glow in each other’s eyes

The light we cling to, reminds us of spring

Light, illuminating everything

And we know we may never return there

Memories of our journey we shall share

Even surrounded by death, our hope persists

It is in our hoping we know it exists

Though we try to keep our eyelids from sleep

The gift of love we shall forever keep

Spring –Renewal/Regret F Major

Summer-Comfort/Consequence D Major

Fall- Splendor/Suffering C# Minor

Winter- Completion/Contemplation D Minor/F Major

I have completed the poem for Spring and here it is:

Spring –Renewal/Regret

In whispered quiet the gentle green growth waits

Breaks forth to life like souls to Heaven’s Gate

Renew life from winter’s cold, dark embrace

Bring us to hope and light without a trace

Sparkling dew drips down the driving grass stems

We will take this moment to make amends

Light breathes with great urgency to arrive

We move towards the fresh air of our new life

New life begins what nature has ended

Renewal of old life represented

Cast away the skulking ghosts of the past

Failing to forget the present cannot last

Taking this, the gift of hope we now own

Forgotten are the frigid winds that blow

When the earth is browned and dormant sleep

The breath of Spring we shall forever keep

I am also having an issue with the order of the movements.  Should it start with Spring and end with Winter, or start with Winter and end with spring?  Who knows how I will complete this task, I just know that I wish I could take a couple weeks off and eat, sleep, breathe, the choir pieces.  But everyone knows real life isn’t like that… and so we must continue to try. I am hoping to complete this work by February.

The piece will be around 15-20 minutes in length and will apparently be awesome once completed.  Sometimes I forget to tell myself these things. I will update as this piece progresses.

and more and more I see less and less of them

it is a corruption of what I had planned with you

its the frayed edges of belief that I can never hem

She says she can’t breathe and I am holding too tight

I could lose everything I once had and everything I ever had

she could fade while I wish away all that I could ever want

when did I wake up and find myself such a happy cynic man

I feel weary and nervous waiting for my time to come

like I’ve always accepted the dreams of all the others

grow up, marry, have children, grow old together

but what is this persistence that we even bother

I would end it now if I knew where to go from here

but where would I go to appear be a new person

there is nothing left in these dreams here for me

how do words promises and dreams get undone

There is no cure. At least not yet.  Even with every exam that comes back clean, NED, Stable, or unremarkable, there is no relief, it only reminds us that we have dodged the bullet one more time.  October has become such a strange month for me.  It is a month of very little rest.  There is a darkness that hangs on like damp day waiting to rain.  Something we can’t shake or shudder away…. and maybe it all is meaningless, because in the end, we are not really entitled to be happy, content, or safe, but instead, constantly evaluating our surroundings and taking stock in the things we may have been spared from if even for just one more day.

Sometimes I recognize the value of an action, a thought, a word…. We are more than the sum of our parts and the sum of the parts of others. I am not sure that I have anything even remotely redeeming to say, but I do know that “we do what we do everyday to get through.” Screw it, dance around, pretend there is no tomorrow, and wear friggin’ pink because sometimes it’s good to have hope always, even when it is hopeless… so even if it sounds like a complete 180… its not because it really doesn’t have to make sense it just has to be something.  Happy Pinktober can’t wait for it to be over.

Visage

Pinktober

Cross My Heart

Painting in a Cave

Dreams of Hawks

I guess I don’t have much to say about this work.

Here is some possible ways to display the series:

Layer 1 and Combined of “Dreams of Hawks”

“Visage” Layer 1, 2, 3 and combined

or the reason we were together

too many things have been taken away

its as if all of creation has become corrupt

with no choice of escaping and it comes in 5 days

with time off for good behavior

The sadness grips me in a different way each time,

Just like my contentment

Or my commitment

What have I said in the past to get me through?

I know I’ve felt this way before

But in a different shade, color, or connection.

I’ve always known that my words are useless

They are read just the same

by the wandering eye

and by wondering I

Can only wait to question

I had a dream that you were her

and that love is love

and we could only consume time

instead of each other

venom succored and lain

the serpents tongue and sleeve

creeps its way through again

It’s your Word against mine

So what of something more?

truth like clock measures time

Darkness is not as sure

Bold in every last step

it waived high bravery

in a Cure and concept

but couldn’t watch you bleed

The Feelings have left me

of a little comfort

the known synchronous we

words are slow and short

Don’t let the Darkness fail

it keeps the Light in you

and the words that you trail

although I can’t follow

There is not much left here

speckled treasures controlled

stolen mistaken cheer

just want us to grow old