Category Archives: Cancer thoughts (Failed Poems)

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  • Dreams

    I had dreams and I had so many memories
    and more and more I see less and less of them
    it is a corruption of what I had planned with you
    its the frayed edges of belief that I can never hem

    She says she can’t breathe and I am holding too tight
    I could lose everything I once had [...]

    You Owe Me {Failed Thought}

    It’s October.  Pinktober… I used to think of Fall and Halloween, and upcoming Thanksgiving and Christmas. Now it’s just the harsh reminder of the divide between those that would like to put breast cancer behind them and those that are more than excited to celebrate survivorship with  “Breast Cancer Awareness Month.” Since I feel already [...]

    Day 8 and 9 – Failed Poems Series

    Completed 5 pieces:

    Visage
    Pinktober
    Cross My Heart
    Painting in a Cave
    Dreams of Hawks

    I guess I don’t have much to say about this work.

    Here is some possible ways to display the series:

    Day 7 – Failed Poems Series

    Day 7 of my work commences and I know that the work continues in my head no matter what I do.  Today’s work centers around things that I lost and things that I have dreamed about.

    Layer 1 and Combined of “Dreams of Hawks”

    “Visage” Layer 1, 2, 3 and combined

    Day 6: {after too long} Failed Poems Work

    It was nice to get back into the studio again after so many months.  So far I am pleased with the work that I have done.  I have evolved in my process a little, which only brings me closer to the clinical side of this endeavor.  In order to keep the plexi from getting finger [...]

    Sweetness and Sour

    I haven’t forgotten the sweetness
    or the reason we were together
    too many things have been taken away

    its as if all of creation has become corrupt
    with no choice of escaping and it comes in 5 days
    with time off for good behavior

    The sadness grips me in a different way each time,
    Just like my contentment
    Or my commitment

    What have I [...]

    How Can Darkness Fail?

    The Poisoned error we breathe
    venom succored and lain
    the serpents tongue and sleeve
    creeps its way through again

    It’s your Word against mine
    So what of something more?
    truth like clock measures time
    Darkness is not as sure

    Bold in every last step
    it waived high bravery
    in a Cure and concept
    but couldn’t watch you bleed

    The Feelings have left me
    of a little comfort
    the known [...]

    Cross My Heart and Hope to Die/Stick a Needle in My Eye

    I remember when you told me the news                I know that there is no turning back
    It’s only an option I can’t refuse
    You were straight faced with nothing less             the words have no meaning
    Like a picture taken without a photo lens              and I will have to deal with the punishment

    Please promise me you won’t die
    Even [...]

    Stick A Needle In My Eye

    I know that there is no turning back
    the words have no meaning
    and I will have to deal with the punishment
    for our lies and the words that have failed
    there are some things that we
    can never tell the truth about
    it is better to lie about fear than
    to experience it
    what would you do then
    to stick a needle in [...]

    Cross My Heart and Hope to Die

    I remember when you told me the news
    It’s only an option I can’t refuse
    You were straight faced with nothing less
    Like a picture taken without a photo lens

    Please promise me you won’t die
    Even if the promise was a lie
    I cross my heart and hope to die

    I knew the truth couldn’t be true
    I knew how to [...]