Fighting the good fight
or even the questionable fight
Seems we’ll never be able to let it go
I am so afraid of not knowing
The last moment that I have
Leaving you and leaving me
I know that we can only wish
To leave something greater
Really that’s all we ever want
To be more than the sum of our parts
I’d be happy [...]
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Don’t let this be the last memory of me {Failed Moment}
May 18, 2010 – 1:29 pm
Chasing the Failed Ghosts of the Past
December 31, 2009 – 5:30 pm
So as we approach the end of 2009 and the beginning of 2010…. Are we just recycling the excitement of the assumption of a better year in the hopes that we will begin again and repeat the cycle over again? Like a Mobius Strip are we entering the same path over and over? I am [...]
Maybe a little {hoffen} is what I need.
December 23, 2009 – 1:47 pm
Maybe this is cheesy, but I just pulled the definition of hope from http://m-w-com.
Here it is:
Main Entry: 1hope
Pronunciation: \hōp\
Function: verb
Inflected Form(s): hoped; hop·ing
Etymology: Middle English, from Old English hopian; akin to Middle High German hoffen to hope
Date: before 12th century
intransitive verb
1 : to cherish a desire with anticipation <hopes for a promotion>
2 archaic : trust
transitive [...]
Corn Starching the Plot
October 1, 2009 – 1:02 pm
OK, so I think I know what direction I need to head. Until all hope is crushed, I will pursue until I finally accept that I am just not a very good artist. But I am thinking of a “looking box” using a peeping hole (like on doors) I will have a painting inside that [...]
Parenthetical “Quotes” from Non-Existant People.
September 29, 2009 – 9:36 am
“What is my point?”
“Perception is 9/10ths of the flaw.”
Well ok, that really doesn’t have anything to do with anything. I want to have a purpose to my work, a goal. Maybe if I created work when I can’t motivate myself to work for the sole purpose of fundraising? Now, I don’t know how this [...]
More Often, Then Not
July 23, 2009 – 6:31 am
I am overly convinced that more often than not, people are unable to look outside themselves in order to find some level of connection. When it comes down to it, we are shadows in a cave, only seeing pale reflections of who we really are and who the people around us really are.
Self Portrait Series (so far)
July 14, 2008 – 7:43 am
Title: Me and this Army
Title: Les Dexik
(bottom)
Title: You’ll Have to Face It Some Day
(Back)
Title: You’ll Have to Face It Some Day
(Front)
Technique involves writing in pen on the gesso’d canvas before painting. The narritive comes through the paint and rises to the surface.
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What is my truth?
February 8, 2008 – 3:59 pm
Who am I really? Can I answer even the simplest questions about preference and who I am? Will I stand for something only if those around me are standing as well?
Having said that, how can my art/music be anything but a lie, as long as I am not true to my self? The times I [...]
Fear
January 26, 2008 – 9:35 am
I realize that my life is more than the sum of my fears, but I know that my motivation is based on my fears. I fear failure, I fear truth, I fear myself… I have a group show at Springer Cultural Center in Champaign, IL and it should be the highlight of my painting career. [...]
Jam 10, double digits
August 15, 2006 – 1:39 pm
Well after some time of trying to get myself in the studio… I have put together something. Not much, but here goes…. JAM 10